It's me, again!

I thought the most busy time of my life are finished but it's not cause I'm in a choral competition!
Still remember the St. John Ambulance competition? Well, this 2 go in a month, this month will be! (I mean March)
The choral competition will be held on next Thursday, 3days more cause we need to performs it at Wednesday.
I feel so sick of myself for like to make myself busy, busier! My body are not feeling well, I've got a sick, maybe a fever and I still want to go yoga afterwards. I fear that I will faint when I'm doing yoga. I'm extremely tired and I can fell a sleep at 9pm, not 9pm is whenever I'd bath, look at my bed and sleep.

p/s: too long no post so I posted this. So sick of myself.

Thanks,

qarz^^

It's Chinese New Year! and Valentine's day~

It's boring... almost a month I didn't online.
I'm caught in the most busy time of my life (maybe)
prepare for the competition, performance and Chinese New Year.
the performance is done but the competition will be held on 28th March of 2010, but the important is Chinese New Year's celebration. I'm busy and tired. I never sleep at 10pm in celebration week but this is my first time, yesterday I did.
My families surprise for my action.
They thought I'm sick.
i'm really fainted.
Didn't even touch my songs book although I've got 'feelings'.
I'm going to visit my friends house to get some angpau pockets. Wonder how much they'll give me~
Well, other than that, will you go out with your lover in this 14th of February? It's a bit harder right cause this two important day smash or match each other in this day, tomorrow!

p/s: At last, wish you guys a happy Chines New Year and Valentine's day!!!
Roarr!!! Muack!!!

Thanks,

qarz^^

No post in 2 weeks till now, a short post.

Days... really can't estimate what will happens next... I'd miss him for days and finally he talk to me. I know I'm kinda funny, but love means much for me.
I just write a song for my action and my feeling. It's 'Naive'.
My busy life won't stop until I die. I knew it, according to my characteristic.
I'll move more forward for my dreams.

'You make me crazier, crazier, crazier'-Taylor Swift.

p/s: Days make me crazier!

2nd post in 2010

A new year, this year we past 14days...
In this day, I got many friends celebrated their birthday... They born so early~
I haven't buy them present cause I'm busy from the first day I go to school(school re-open) until now.
My busy life won't stop cause this what I suppose to be and suppose to do.
Maybe I like to be busy, make myself breathless.
I know many things I gonna do and that's just because it's my responsibility. This and past weeks, I'm nearly fainted, I'm tired!!!
I'm tired and busy until I don't have much time rest so I just felt a sleep at class and sometimes I overslept, luckily I didn't miss my school time.
But sometimes I curious, why am I so tired and keep worrying every thing? I tried not to focus on this but I can't.
More boring when I more tired, worried, busy, curious...
I'm funny but life still need to go on like this, we're lucky cause I know you and you know me.

2010~? Since 1996-?(2009)

Now, I'm 14, it's my new and fresh year...
Bye, regrets and I'll try not to live with regrets in this year and my future.
Days feel like years won't appear again cause our earth's gravity had weaken. Our life and our times will pass faster than before, we need to more appreciate it right now.
I'm not really that happy when I countdown Thursday. It's very peace, my heart, my soul, all of my feeling...all are peace and calm, like nothing happens and I'm not in the situation.
Keep asking, will this worth? will this worth for my life? Wish to die but I'm not really want it, and my dream haven't come true yet, my hopes all of myself, eveything about me, too many, too much, it's uncountable, all I'm still standing here, remaining at where I be. I know I lost too many things and I still haven't take action. I wanted to die, wanted to go to hell, don't wanna to neg in this world...but I'm stubborn, I'm selfish, I knew maybe if I dead, it will be more better for this world...but my dream, my everything that I want haven't come true, I haven't get yet, plus I'm not brave enough to kill myself and for others, they won't do that cause no one will ever kill me without a reason.
Ya, this is me, a girl that only mind for myself...
What am I doing?
Forget it, I know this year will be beter, everything will be better if you're not going to give up yourself.

p/s: Can someone tell me, is it real that we just need to bring exercise books to school next Monday(when school re-open)

Thanks,

qarz^^

Bye, sweet heart...You know I love you 2009...

Today, a little sad...and special...
Today is Ya Yin's birthday...and 2009's last day...
Well, my family and I decided to celebrate it in the cinema.
I'm going to watch 'Bodyguards and Assassins' (it's 18PG) and I'm gonna watch it at 12.35a.m.1st January 2010
But I decided to act like a 18 years old girl.
Act in this age maybe not really hard because my look is mature and my body look mature too.
Should I feel happy with this?
Anyway, we're going to celebrate for New Year.
This is my first time watch movie at midnight, feeling kinda weird...
Looking forward to 2010, I'm 14, not longer a child, not to childish...
Many things gonna change next year...
This year I make myself regrets, I tried too many new things, I passed many unexpected things...and I'm trying to change, I tell myself that: I must success!!!
Will my dream come true?
Will I grow to 175cm?
Will I fall in love again?
Will I still remain my life like this?
Don't know what will happen but I know tomorrow will be better...

p/s: We wish you a Happy New Year and Ya Yin's birthday!

Thanks,

qarz^^

Be my guest

Be my guest, it's a common word-
It's a song's name or anything, but now I gotta feeling like wanna write a song with this name:

Seeking a dude that really hot
Finding for cause I'm really bored
I'm already started to called
They're all off their phone
I need to shop in the mall
Search some guys out there
Why am I look like a fool?

Now stop your eyes stared
Your friends calling you
And they tell you you're warned
I'm feeling awkward right now
Don't know what shall I do
yeah
Keep making things worst
Keep laughing like a nut
Getting crazy cause I'm freaking out
Why shall the land keep spinning around
Don't know what's happening cause I'm a girl from nowhere

I'm loving a song that never heard
I'm playing a game that invisible
Watching a movie without it title
Doing everything that impossible
That's why it's a lie
Lying for what?
I just want you to be my guest
You gonna be my guest

Remember the picture we took last night
Maybe it isn't outstanding but it's unforgettable
This is all in my mind
Cause you're my very first guest
The one who treated me well
Ohh~are you feeling don't want to know me
Pretend we're strangers cause I'm kinda freak girl
Cause you don't know who I am
And I'm

Chick style like a guy
Living in a weird place
It's exactly hell
So what you mean right now

I'm loving a song that never heard
I'm playing a game that invisible
Watching a movie without it title
Doing everything that impossible
That's why it's a lie
Lying for happy?
I just want you to be my guest
You gonna be my guest

My precious secret
All of them
Yeah
I'm ready to let you
I'll make you know all
There's no hiding behind our relationship
And what you see are all real

I'm loving a song that never heard
I'm playing a game that invisible
Watching a movie without it title
Doing everything that impossible
That's why it's a lie
Lying cause love it
I just want you to be my guest
Ohh~You gonna be my guest

Thanking a guy that never met
He's my idol
No, he ain't a superstar
He just a guy that
Rolling off, Falling down
Until zero
He's a baby
Got a blank mind
He suite to be my guest
He maybe can make me love him

Now he's victim
I'm pity for him
Cause he's looking at me
And he is crying
My guest will be fainted or maybe they're sicken
Don't be here
If you dare to be my guest
Yo!
You can be
You really are my guest
What shall I speak out

Thanks,

qarz^^