Bye, sweet heart...You know I love you 2009...

Today, a little sad...and special...
Today is Ya Yin's birthday...and 2009's last day...
Well, my family and I decided to celebrate it in the cinema.
I'm going to watch 'Bodyguards and Assassins' (it's 18PG) and I'm gonna watch it at 12.35a.m.1st January 2010
But I decided to act like a 18 years old girl.
Act in this age maybe not really hard because my look is mature and my body look mature too.
Should I feel happy with this?
Anyway, we're going to celebrate for New Year.
This is my first time watch movie at midnight, feeling kinda weird...
Looking forward to 2010, I'm 14, not longer a child, not to childish...
Many things gonna change next year...
This year I make myself regrets, I tried too many new things, I passed many unexpected things...and I'm trying to change, I tell myself that: I must success!!!
Will my dream come true?
Will I grow to 175cm?
Will I fall in love again?
Will I still remain my life like this?
Don't know what will happen but I know tomorrow will be better...

p/s: We wish you a Happy New Year and Ya Yin's birthday!

Thanks,

qarz^^

Be my guest

Be my guest, it's a common word-
It's a song's name or anything, but now I gotta feeling like wanna write a song with this name:

Seeking a dude that really hot
Finding for cause I'm really bored
I'm already started to called
They're all off their phone
I need to shop in the mall
Search some guys out there
Why am I look like a fool?

Now stop your eyes stared
Your friends calling you
And they tell you you're warned
I'm feeling awkward right now
Don't know what shall I do
yeah
Keep making things worst
Keep laughing like a nut
Getting crazy cause I'm freaking out
Why shall the land keep spinning around
Don't know what's happening cause I'm a girl from nowhere

I'm loving a song that never heard
I'm playing a game that invisible
Watching a movie without it title
Doing everything that impossible
That's why it's a lie
Lying for what?
I just want you to be my guest
You gonna be my guest

Remember the picture we took last night
Maybe it isn't outstanding but it's unforgettable
This is all in my mind
Cause you're my very first guest
The one who treated me well
Ohh~are you feeling don't want to know me
Pretend we're strangers cause I'm kinda freak girl
Cause you don't know who I am
And I'm

Chick style like a guy
Living in a weird place
It's exactly hell
So what you mean right now

I'm loving a song that never heard
I'm playing a game that invisible
Watching a movie without it title
Doing everything that impossible
That's why it's a lie
Lying for happy?
I just want you to be my guest
You gonna be my guest

My precious secret
All of them
Yeah
I'm ready to let you
I'll make you know all
There's no hiding behind our relationship
And what you see are all real

I'm loving a song that never heard
I'm playing a game that invisible
Watching a movie without it title
Doing everything that impossible
That's why it's a lie
Lying cause love it
I just want you to be my guest
Ohh~You gonna be my guest

Thanking a guy that never met
He's my idol
No, he ain't a superstar
He just a guy that
Rolling off, Falling down
Until zero
He's a baby
Got a blank mind
He suite to be my guest
He maybe can make me love him

Now he's victim
I'm pity for him
Cause he's looking at me
And he is crying
My guest will be fainted or maybe they're sicken
Don't be here
If you dare to be my guest
Yo!
You can be
You really are my guest
What shall I speak out

Thanks,

qarz^^

Book sales in my school...

Long time no post lo,
Very boring, LOL
Next week I went KL for Christmas because my parents got dinner there(somebody's wedding)
Actually, my parents' wedding anniversary also held in Christmas, so we decided to celebrate it in 26th December lo
We came back last Saturday, I usually won't online in Sunday...
Well, after that my school got sell books, I'm one of the members in cooperate...
Books sales held for three days.
Yesterday, I want to online de but the line very lousy, cannot connect at all...
Luckily, today I can online le, if not I wanna die liao!!!
But still, the line very slow o~
Well, it's okay cause I can post...
Today, very happy o, I saw Dana and many of my friends. Dana is my best friend and i really happy that I saw her! I serve her leh today...
Happy~
Well, I thought I can be a salesgirl if  I don't have job in my future, you know, selling things is my special, maybe i should use word freak, a freak hobby...
Love the way when peoples need my serve/helps...
I feel weird or boring when no one need me or when I'm free, i like to be busy in a weird way.
To all of my Yok Bin's friends, remember to buy books tomorrow, it's the last day!
and don't forget to think 1st then buy!

p/s: It's important!!! If you skip my whole post dun forget to read the last sentence, it'll be the most important thing!!!

Movies and it's meaning

Long time no post~
Nothing's special but I just wanna mention that I watched Avatar yesterday night!
It's really interesting and meaningful.
T.T
Well, I just need to say that we really need to save our earth!
Not only Avatar, 2012 and some other past movie that ask us to recycle, to protect our earth, it's just too many...
As far as you knew, many readings told us that world will be end in one day, maybe that day will be held at 21st till 23rd December 2012, it's after 3 years, but this year, 2009, is going to end in 8 and1/2 day. But we don't know what will happens next, in next second, next minute, next hour and...I realize if this all things really happens as we expected, that's mean my life will end when I'm only 16, My life will end when I'm still a teenager, that many hopes and many dreams, haven't success, come true yet. But I'm already lucky if I just die at 16 cause if there's new born baby, how about them? They're still weak and maybe still haven't got time to know their name, they even don't know how to talk, how pity are them?
I'd been tried to help our belove planet, earth, but those who really help, it's just too a little, our love and care to our home are just a drop of water. We knew, not only us, it's all of the living things, humans, animals, plants or maybe more than that, knew, only if we work together can get the best result.
I'd swear before, if I'm rich and I'm intelligent, I want to create a thing that can save our planet, it's concept is really easy, I imagine it with the point of recycle.
So what if I swore? That's  not everything, in fact, I still don't know when my life will end, I thought I don't have enough time to this, just a willing in my heart, but I haven't start to progress it yet, my plan.
I heard a very meaningful words from American Top Model, Tyra Banks, she said this:

When we are young, we are green,

When we are poor, we wish to be green,

When we are rich, we go green.

My last post did mention go green, I remember it's 'Poor Rich Man= =$$' , this song was inspired by the words that Tyra Banks said. It's mean that, 'Yeah, you're a rich but you lost everything, comes from nature, so you're poor to me.'

p/s: Avatar is a nice movie, buy ticket earlier cause it's really popular. Other than this, watch movies are not just watch, try to get what it's means.

Thanks,

qarz^^

Go for a walk with some of my friends~

Yesterday, we standard 6 friends go gathering at Makhota Parade(MP) and then we cross over the road to Dataran Pahlawan(DP).
We meet up at MP mc donald, and we started to chit chat.
We decided to watch movie 'Storm Warrior II' but at last we decided to play bowling.
It's kinda fun to meet up with my old friends and they're the best for me.
I and Rui Lin go for shopping together as we waiting to go home and other friends such as Thien Hee, Jun Hong, Kai Rong, Sandy, Celine, Kong Chern, Fu Yang...went back yesterday.
Well, at last to mention is we're still friends and we'd fun yesterday

Poor Rich Man == $$ ?

Intro:
Crying without a sound
Too silence I'm afraid
Feeling weird but it's real
Teasing with our earth
Those man laughing at me
Cause they don't mind what's going on out there

With tears I sang a song
I wrote it when I felt the places were polluted
The fresh air is fading
With what we can still alive?
We gather and live happily but we finally forgotten
Our past

Chorus:
No place to go
No true faces shown
Reality world make sense
But what pledge we gave
So what if you got Ferrari
So what if your house is a huge bungalow
I use to be poor
But I know how serious is the world's being
And I'm going green
Going green

Is it secure to live here again?
Don't you ever ask yourself
What'd you did to your belonging
Oh~earth is yours but not just yours
It's human's property

Looking for more happy
I'd forgotten rich is not the way to be
World without oxygen
Dead bodies from everywhere
Your need you forget to appreciate
Don't feel regret cause now is all to late

Chorus:
No place to go
No true faces shown
Reality world make sense
But what pledge we gave
So what if you got Ferrari
So what if your house is a huge bungalow
I use to be poor
But I know how serious is the world's being
And I'm going green
Going green
Anti garbage in my world

Bridge:
You said you're rich
House, car, money
But you lost the most important property
It's not a joke and it'll happens one day, a day
Don't get me off my way
I'm recycling, doing it, going green, greeeen

Not much to say
Now shut your mouth and listen to me
I'm teaching you
You famous man
What you're learn and are you with me
It's a common question
And I'm a trendsetter I'm gonna change your mind
Now you'd done you're a nature's lover

If I haven't touch you
Don't say, Don't tell, Don't lie
I get your button in my hand control you
I'll say this, gonna make it, tell you that
Get you crazy
Ohh~you a rich man but poor

Thanks,
qarz^^

Let's eat! Ikan Bakar from Umbai, Melaka!!!

Yesterday, my family decided to had dinner in Umbai.
Of course in Umbai, the most popular food is Ikan Bakar.
Ooh~ delicious!
Because of I'm really hungry yesterday, so I ate 2 nasi lemak and 4 otak-otak before the food is serve. (The nasi lemak and otak-otak is well prepared)
We ate Lala(蚬)but unfortunately this is not the season for lala, it's not really tasty during this season. After the sotong bakar is served. We usually eat Sotong goreng but yesterday we just wanna try new thing. It's not really awful, in fact it's not bad, just the chef didn't cut it properly, it's a little hard to be eaten.
But the best part is ikan bakar. We ordered ikan bakar without any juice, just plain ikan bakar. the plain ikan bakar taste better then with juice cause the fish remain it scales that can protect it juice to make the flesh more juicy and tasty, the fish wasn't dry, it's really lovely, it's the main dish and i love it!!!
You guys really deserve a try!
It's popularity make our government put a sign for us, it is easy to find this shop, it is the kedai but not gerai and the shop got parking place, Other than this, the shop is at the side of the sea, we can see sea's beautiful side there. It's an amazing experience!
I love it!

p/s: actually, this is not my 1st time eating there, I just decided to introduce some places to those who love to eat^.^

Thanks,
qarz^^

Pure

Don't know what to say
Don't care how they treat me
Dreamed a dream
But it doesn't cheer me up
Where to go and Why shall I live
In this narrow place
Silence situation kept
With nothing else left
Only memories act

I'm back again
Remember he said 'I love you, this is true'
Just a smile I replied to him
He wanted me to trust him
But how can I believe a guy that never tell lies
It's too false
I'm now standing here no one's beside me
Even the messages I sent no one reply
Cause I begged them to hate me
Don't wanna hurt them that's why I'm here, this place

Ain't Las Vegas
No gambling here
Not Hollywood
No famous stars shine
It's just a small town
Countryside
Ohh, we pray out sincerely
To Jesus Christ
This is all we do right here
Maybe for you it's naive
But we did

Don't you see there's children playing
Their childish touch my heart
Hope you do so
Now I'm different
I'm not a girl
that jealous to love again
I try to get out of here
To set myself free and happy

No luxury cosmetics
No girls wearing stilettos here
Can't you see we're change
Too much changes and now we're like strangers
hanging together

Ain't Las Vegas
No gambling here
Not Hollywood
No famous stars shine
It's just a small town
in Countryside
Ohh, we pray out sincerely
To Jesus Christ
This is all we do right here
Maybe for you it's naive
But we did it together

Now you're feeling like why I'd change so much
Maybe you can't even recognize me without the letters I wrote
Ohh, the photos I took
Those new trend is not important for me right now
I am a ordinary girl
I'm back to basic

A state without pollution
Can you feel the fresh air around you
Renewing my heart
Like a surgery I'd did to safe my spirit
Wish you can be like me now
Now I'm bliss

It's happy to be right here
Even the lake right here is pure

hehe""^^

续昨天我写的post
完整的其实只少了一句：我们聊天多过玩。
这就是昨天我miss掉的事
haha...
我怎么会这么'天才'啊？！
using English back again...
Well, I thought using back English is more suitable for my blog cause this is an English blog!
boring is real and still I'm sitting here and starring at my computer, day dreaming~
nothing to post cause my life is as plain as water
no special thing happen but posting is just because I don't have any other web to go.

p/s: suggestions and comments are really accepted, just comments me!!!

Thanks,
qarz^^

一些事。。。

今天早上我回了学校，不止是因为戏剧练习，也因为我太旧没见我的朋友们，上一次的post也说了，没人找我出外玩嘛！
借着这个机会我找了几个朋友，但是。。。到最后只有我，慧娜，还有一个放了我两次飞机的衰仔，终于赴约了，只是少了两个朋友来。。。=.=''
他就是适卫`~:-
我以为他又放我飞机，所以当他出现在我面前时，我傻掉了。。。
我没有期望他一定会来，毕竟他放过飞机而且不可信任，所以。。。
而且他很早到,我吓到了"
本来有很多朋友来的，但是他们有事。

打到差不多一点，我们就闪人了。
无聊地聊天，拖到了两点才回。
haha...

p/s: 其余的明天再说，bye sweetheart

Thanks,
qarz^^

无聊假期～＝.＝

真无聊，到现在我还是上着网，听着歌，也没人找我出去玩。＝＝”
因为我没有联络别人，所以他们也没联络我。
我已决定今天call慧娜，let's see if we can go lepak. +.+
haha......
I heard that she will come to Yok Bin and play and......
She says this is a secret especially to hide from Tahizai.
Whatever lo, but I still wanna post this thing cause they won't really read my post right?!
I think so...-.-
haha, I thought I so funny, typing Chinese awhile then become English back.
LOL~
回来了！我还是继续用华语吧！
嘿嘿，这是我第二个华语post.
不懂为什么突然想用华语咯？！
看了我的post，记得找我出去lepak!
忘记我的话你就去死吧！
hehe...开玩笑罢了，别当真哪！

Thanks,
qarz^^

一点解说（关于我，不是歌啦〔＝。＝

每年每次每个假期都是让人期待的，我一如往常如此期待着，但是今年有些不同的感觉，我不是不期待，而是少了一些热诚。
一直以来幼稚的我，变了。
变成怎样了也许少人知道，甚至没人懂。因为我变很多了。
旧朋友认识的我其实已渐渐改变，从去年12月起，我已不是我。
虽然以前的我也不是真正的我，但我从没想过我可以改变得这么多。
情伤，不止爱情，亲情，连友情，如此珍贵的友情也留下伤痕了。
没有爱情没有亲情，无所谓，因为我还有朋友。
事情改变得这么快，我怕我无法承受这些痛，因为我就是脆弱，从来没有坚硬过！！！
只有自己才能就回自己，只是我已渐渐地强了，我甚至把自己给逼疯了，我逼自己坚强逼得眼泪会无端端地留下，因为真正该哭时我不哭，我强忍着，不该哭时，连走路也有可能落泪，奇怪得不信任自己了。

我不该多说，我并不想让别人懂我，但却写了这么多，算了，懂一点，别懂完，就算我说了，应该也没人了解吧？！

p/s: 别了解我，我会因此而更伤心。。。