Facebook did this... ?

Why we now less using blog?
It's because there is facebook, twitter and more appear after blogging.
I'm busy because of  facebook.
Keep updating facebook and almost forget of my lovely blog...
But whatever it is, I'll love my blog just as the blog love.

I'm gone with his love...
Disappear, Appear, Disappear, Appear and now disappear again.
I love him and I'll keep my love for him.
That mean I'll preseve my love.

I'll be waiting for you cause I trust you.
I Love You!

Thanks! bloggie!

It had been a month I didn't update my blog.
The day before tomorrow...
I'm so confused.
I need to find a place to give out my stress and tension but I almost forget the exist of my blog.
Bloggie... miss you very much!
Everyone around me don't like me, or I shall say they hate me.
This week, I went through many troublesome things and almost can't make up with it.
My parents keep advice me and it make me feel so annoying and irritating!
I knew what they want to teach me but don't they realize I'm not an ordinary child?
Well, other than that, someone that influenced my life had an accident.
I love him so much and I just can't losing him.
Conductor... I'm the conductor for my class and I did something wrong and now all of the friends in my class hat me and angry with me, they even want me to die!

That guy, sometimes I hate him.
I'm pulled out from love and gave up in love, maybe I shall wait until I'm graduated from Secondary School, I thought it in my deep heart core.
But he, interrupt my life and make me fall in love with him.
Now I've got more love Q! That is really confusing and I don't want to think about it!
But I... can stop thinking of him and I'll smile, whenever I think of him.

I wish to die! but I'm not dare to die. And I don't wanna die before I got my success.

My folio, finally passed up today.
I got a lot of worry and without my blog I've got nowhere to put out my emo.

p/s: I'm thinking death cause I thought if this little thing and mess, still I can't even go through, I'm not tough enough and I shall die first before I regret. I need psychology doctor and 'kaunseling' . My heart, my mind and everything of me are getting a mess and i'm mad-crazy! Anyway, ILY, ILJ Shi(L) J!

Thanks,

qarz^^

I fall in love with an anonymous!!!

Long time didn't update my blog...
I'm so crazy! I really join all the competition if or when I can and free.
This is so awesome!
Loving a guy that not exist in your life is pain.
I don't know why, how can I love him so much seems I never see his face.
He caught with the fact I admit.
Ya!!! I love nerd! I like no expressions de man, I like sa sa de guy.
He is amazing when I'm badly falling in love with him and I can't stop thinking of him!

p/s: Thinking if I can forget him, but we never start yet!
      Will I give up before we start? It's weird.

Dreamz 96 2010, is over too...

Love my soulmate...
Lonely... Tired... boring...
I'll put my effort in my studies, I told myself since 4years ago.
Did i realize that this is an impossible mission for me?
But now... I don't care, cause i know what i said always never happen.
I trust myself, i must do it!!!
Still got time...
Do it, baby!
Nothing to post...

Dreamz 96 that I'd dreamed and excited for times but it's over.
need to learn more songs' dance.
Dance like a dancing queen.
I know I'm the best performer when i perform.
When i really want to do.
You'll poke your eyes out of your face if i just do it.\

p/s: trust me, baby...!!!!

Thanks,

qarz^^

Updated cause of love to my blog~

Long time no update my blog d...
The singing competition is over...
All the thing in my life going so fast...
Can I accept it?
Exam are over too.
I want to cry over the day and night cause I've got so many that I'm so stressful and I just can't figure it out.
Quarreling with guy that I need.
Don't think much, the guy is my papa.
I want to share all my things and hopes with everyone cause I just can't take it on my own.
I want to tell the whole world when I'm in love.
When things gone better.
Trying so hard to maintain my secret in my life.
Kiss me, dear.
Hold me, baby.
Love me for always I know.

Thanks,

qarz^^

Prom Night is over! Wake up!

The prom night is over!!! happy but dissapointing looks of me.
Baby, do you love me?
i'm so boring now.

I'm preparing the song for the singing competition.
It's stressful but I'm so looking forward.
We love nature!!!
Will we maintain the love to our nature till the last day?
So keep your everything cause life is not long anymore.

The best in the prom night is my stilettos.
It is so beautiful but I thought it's tall.
about 4inch...10cm!!!

p/s: nothing to post... just want to update my blog.

Thanks,

qarz^^

I'm terrible!!!

I've got a dress to the prom night but all of my families and friends think that it's better if I wear my own dress.
So what should I do?
Fine. Now is another problem.
I'm in love with another guy.
Know that this love is impossible but still I love him.
How?
How about my love maybe I can call him as my ex.....
I told him I love him and I thought this will long lasting but within a day I'm crazy crushing with another guy.
It's really impossible to be with him or to love him.
He's not that easy, maybe...
But this kinda feeling appear, maybe is because my characteristic.
I love challenging new thing.
I want to challenge as it is more impossible that relationship between us.
I'm afraid but I can't get his face out of my eyes, my mind and my heart.
He is right there but will he love a girl that is blah blah blah than himself?
It's a serious problem as I can't sleep.
I wanna fight for him and I know how to make a guy fall in love with myself.
I must admit that I'm intelligent in love.
But if I do that I'm too selfish.
I really realize myself.
What I really want will be reality if I do want it.
I'm extremely want him now.

p/s: Need you now by Lady Antebellum. This is what I'm feeling right now. Can't get it why I will fall in love with a guy within one day with his smile. He killed me!!!
I'm crazy kinda crush on him!!!

Thanks,

qarz^^

When I look at you, I see everything.

Yeah~ when my world falling apart

when there is no light to that can break up the dark 

that's when I I I look at you

When the waves 

are flooding the shore and I can't 

Find my way home anymore

That's when I, I, I look at you

This song is Miley Cyrus's and it's very beautiful

It is When I look at you

I love it very much!

Actually i got nothing to post but I decided to update my blog seen I'm so boring.

Today is the day!

The campfire night!

I've been waiting so long and finally comes.

p/s: Trying to forget everything but I can't cause this is my history that is needed to be remembered.

Thanks,

qarz^^

Yeah!!!

My old post mention my busy life and i forgot that i got an activity run by our school English Language Society(ELS).
It's a PROM NIGHT!!!
I will attend this dinner cause i thought it will be fun!
Actually this prom night only let form 3 and above students attend but I'm one of the committees so i can go.
I love to play and by Saturday I'm going to my school scout campfire.
It will be extremely fun!!!
I'm gonna enjoy it.
By the way, I haven't do my homework (art folio and blah blah blah...)
All is needed to pass up next week.
what should I do?
haiz...
Someone tells me he loves me but it's frighten me and i don't know what should i do.
He never tells me face to face but His friends told me.
I don't like him really i don't.
I'd already fall in love to a guy and i told him.
he don't trust me but never mind.
cause i'm sure he loves me too.

p/s: no love matter now, don't think about it baby. get bless from god.

Thanks,

qarz^^

it's busy again~

life is busy.
i thought busy life will ends but i've join 2 more competition 1 more program.
singing competition and kollam compeItition, after that will be lalu lintas and the last is our school sports day.
The sports day, maybe i will be chosen as an athlete for my house.
I'm not sure yet but i know i will be busy.
i'm funny right?
i never fully rest since my school re-open.
every week, every day i'm at school included holidays and some weekends.
so busy is a sweet thing and a fun thing.
love to sing and i decided, 我爱他.
love this song but actually i never think to choose this song.
my first choice is black skirt(chinese translate)
and the second choice is heart wall(chinese translate)
this song 我爱他 is recommended by my friends, they say i'm suit and my voice will sing this song well, so i chose it.
All of my friends except those who choose this song for me, they all surprise and they thought i can't sing this song cause the key is too tall.
but i can and i will sing this song.
After that, there's 2 more singing competition which is: english language singing competition and malay language singing competition. I thought i will join all of the singing competition seems if i love sing.

p/s: do your best in everything you want!!!

Thanks,

qarz^^  

Happiness soon come!

good luck? bad luck?
whatever it is, i still in a happy mood^-^
love sweet?
my competition are over, but i need to prepare for our school prom night. (i heard that this is the first year of the function)
it is held at 1st of May (my brother's birthdate)
gonna find a dinner dress, nice one!
feel better now......
I'm completely open minded

p/s: loving is a bit awkward but sweet^-^

love problem again?! n weak problem?!

someone had asked me to quit the st john competition cause there's too many problem within us.
She's right. I'd think about this before but something in my mind, in my brain ask me not to quit it.
Really headache about this problem and i'd decided to call my teammate and our school st john ambulance chairman.
What I fear now is their reaction especially tong seng's.
What should I do now?
Someone please help me to figure out the answer.

Very curious, why? whenever I feel I need to give up him but he give me hopes again.
Why this feeling keep overcome me? I just can't stop this feeling. I'm too tiny, weak, but I do admit it, I love him.

p/s: words for myself: let's make your decision as soon as possible! no more furious!!!

Thanks,

qarz^^

Need to rest more and calm down

i watched 'Under the Mountain' yesterday night with my lovely mother.
It's not bad! I wondered why this movie isn't very popular and I figured it out last night.
Because this movie is produced by New Zealand.
It's means something if you watch silencely. (know what i mean right? my english not good =.=)
Other than that, there's some changes in my team (st john competition team)
Well, wish this changes will give good results and is better than before.

p/s: It will be over, after a week, after 28th March 2010. Need to rest more...

Thanks,

qarz^^

Bye exam! this week exam is finished!

finally, i finish my exam!!!
Although my results are really bad, but I still enjoy my life.
I'm feeling extremely fresh, waiting for bless from god... thinking maybe someday i'll get what i want...
refreshing my blog with this post, can i?
well, whatever is it, i know a movie and i'm gonna recommended for you guys that is:

Alice in Wonderland

Actually i haven't watch yet but my mummy said we're going to cinema for this movie next Sunday!!!
happy deals!!!!

p/s: Don't forget pal, u still have st. john competition.

Thanks,

qarz^^

We did it in 5 days!

yes!!! we won the second prize in choral speaking competition Thursday, yesterday.
next week got test, then is the st john competition.
well, really need to calm myself down today cause i've wait so long to on9. maybe a month i never on9 till now.
gotta off9. by the way, do you guys feel boring this weekend to study?
tomorrow will post more.

p/s: we pratised for 5 days to won this competition, so happy. others used maybe a month to prepare, soo happy. Second means first (politic matter)

It's me, again!

I thought the most busy time of my life are finished but it's not cause I'm in a choral competition!
Still remember the St. John Ambulance competition? Well, this 2 go in a month, this month will be! (I mean March)
The choral competition will be held on next Thursday, 3days more cause we need to performs it at Wednesday.
I feel so sick of myself for like to make myself busy, busier! My body are not feeling well, I've got a sick, maybe a fever and I still want to go yoga afterwards. I fear that I will faint when I'm doing yoga. I'm extremely tired and I can fell a sleep at 9pm, not 9pm is whenever I'd bath, look at my bed and sleep.

p/s: too long no post so I posted this. So sick of myself.

Thanks,

qarz^^

It's Chinese New Year! and Valentine's day~

It's boring... almost a month I didn't online.
I'm caught in the most busy time of my life (maybe)
prepare for the competition, performance and Chinese New Year.
the performance is done but the competition will be held on 28th March of 2010, but the important is Chinese New Year's celebration. I'm busy and tired. I never sleep at 10pm in celebration week but this is my first time, yesterday I did.
My families surprise for my action.
They thought I'm sick.
i'm really fainted.
Didn't even touch my songs book although I've got 'feelings'.
I'm going to visit my friends house to get some angpau pockets. Wonder how much they'll give me~
Well, other than that, will you go out with your lover in this 14th of February? It's a bit harder right cause this two important day smash or match each other in this day, tomorrow!

p/s: At last, wish you guys a happy Chines New Year and Valentine's day!!!
Roarr!!! Muack!!!

Thanks,

qarz^^

No post in 2 weeks till now, a short post.

Days... really can't estimate what will happens next... I'd miss him for days and finally he talk to me. I know I'm kinda funny, but love means much for me.
I just write a song for my action and my feeling. It's 'Naive'.
My busy life won't stop until I die. I knew it, according to my characteristic.
I'll move more forward for my dreams.

'You make me crazier, crazier, crazier'-Taylor Swift.

p/s: Days make me crazier!

2nd post in 2010

A new year, this year we past 14days...
In this day, I got many friends celebrated their birthday... They born so early~
I haven't buy them present cause I'm busy from the first day I go to school(school re-open) until now.
My busy life won't stop cause this what I suppose to be and suppose to do.
Maybe I like to be busy, make myself breathless.
I know many things I gonna do and that's just because it's my responsibility. This and past weeks, I'm nearly fainted, I'm tired!!!
I'm tired and busy until I don't have much time rest so I just felt a sleep at class and sometimes I overslept, luckily I didn't miss my school time.
But sometimes I curious, why am I so tired and keep worrying every thing? I tried not to focus on this but I can't.
More boring when I more tired, worried, busy, curious...
I'm funny but life still need to go on like this, we're lucky cause I know you and you know me.

2010~? Since 1996-?(2009)

Now, I'm 14, it's my new and fresh year...
Bye, regrets and I'll try not to live with regrets in this year and my future.
Days feel like years won't appear again cause our earth's gravity had weaken. Our life and our times will pass faster than before, we need to more appreciate it right now.
I'm not really that happy when I countdown Thursday. It's very peace, my heart, my soul, all of my feeling...all are peace and calm, like nothing happens and I'm not in the situation.
Keep asking, will this worth? will this worth for my life? Wish to die but I'm not really want it, and my dream haven't come true yet, my hopes all of myself, eveything about me, too many, too much, it's uncountable, all I'm still standing here, remaining at where I be. I know I lost too many things and I still haven't take action. I wanted to die, wanted to go to hell, don't wanna to neg in this world...but I'm stubborn, I'm selfish, I knew maybe if I dead, it will be more better for this world...but my dream, my everything that I want haven't come true, I haven't get yet, plus I'm not brave enough to kill myself and for others, they won't do that cause no one will ever kill me without a reason.
Ya, this is me, a girl that only mind for myself...
What am I doing?
Forget it, I know this year will be beter, everything will be better if you're not going to give up yourself.

p/s: Can someone tell me, is it real that we just need to bring exercise books to school next Monday(when school re-open)

Thanks,

qarz^^