No post in 2 weeks till now, a short post.

Days... really can't estimate what will happens next... I'd miss him for days and finally he talk to me. I know I'm kinda funny, but love means much for me.
I just write a song for my action and my feeling. It's 'Naive'.
My busy life won't stop until I die. I knew it, according to my characteristic.
I'll move more forward for my dreams.

'You make me crazier, crazier, crazier'-Taylor Swift.

p/s: Days make me crazier!

2nd post in 2010

A new year, this year we past 14days...
In this day, I got many friends celebrated their birthday... They born so early~
I haven't buy them present cause I'm busy from the first day I go to school(school re-open) until now.
My busy life won't stop cause this what I suppose to be and suppose to do.
Maybe I like to be busy, make myself breathless.
I know many things I gonna do and that's just because it's my responsibility. This and past weeks, I'm nearly fainted, I'm tired!!!
I'm tired and busy until I don't have much time rest so I just felt a sleep at class and sometimes I overslept, luckily I didn't miss my school time.
But sometimes I curious, why am I so tired and keep worrying every thing? I tried not to focus on this but I can't.
More boring when I more tired, worried, busy, curious...
I'm funny but life still need to go on like this, we're lucky cause I know you and you know me.

2010~? Since 1996-?(2009)

Now, I'm 14, it's my new and fresh year...
Bye, regrets and I'll try not to live with regrets in this year and my future.
Days feel like years won't appear again cause our earth's gravity had weaken. Our life and our times will pass faster than before, we need to more appreciate it right now.
I'm not really that happy when I countdown Thursday. It's very peace, my heart, my soul, all of my feeling...all are peace and calm, like nothing happens and I'm not in the situation.
Keep asking, will this worth? will this worth for my life? Wish to die but I'm not really want it, and my dream haven't come true yet, my hopes all of myself, eveything about me, too many, too much, it's uncountable, all I'm still standing here, remaining at where I be. I know I lost too many things and I still haven't take action. I wanted to die, wanted to go to hell, don't wanna to neg in this world...but I'm stubborn, I'm selfish, I knew maybe if I dead, it will be more better for this world...but my dream, my everything that I want haven't come true, I haven't get yet, plus I'm not brave enough to kill myself and for others, they won't do that cause no one will ever kill me without a reason.
Ya, this is me, a girl that only mind for myself...
What am I doing?
Forget it, I know this year will be beter, everything will be better if you're not going to give up yourself.

p/s: Can someone tell me, is it real that we just need to bring exercise books to school next Monday(when school re-open)

Thanks,

qarz^^

Bye, sweet heart...You know I love you 2009...

Today, a little sad...and special...
Today is Ya Yin's birthday...and 2009's last day...
Well, my family and I decided to celebrate it in the cinema.
I'm going to watch 'Bodyguards and Assassins' (it's 18PG) and I'm gonna watch it at 12.35a.m.1st January 2010
But I decided to act like a 18 years old girl.
Act in this age maybe not really hard because my look is mature and my body look mature too.
Should I feel happy with this?
Anyway, we're going to celebrate for New Year.
This is my first time watch movie at midnight, feeling kinda weird...
Looking forward to 2010, I'm 14, not longer a child, not to childish...
Many things gonna change next year...
This year I make myself regrets, I tried too many new things, I passed many unexpected things...and I'm trying to change, I tell myself that: I must success!!!
Will my dream come true?
Will I grow to 175cm?
Will I fall in love again?
Will I still remain my life like this?
Don't know what will happen but I know tomorrow will be better...

p/s: We wish you a Happy New Year and Ya Yin's birthday!

Thanks,

qarz^^

Be my guest

Be my guest, it's a common word-
It's a song's name or anything, but now I gotta feeling like wanna write a song with this name:

Seeking a dude that really hot
Finding for cause I'm really bored
I'm already started to called
They're all off their phone
I need to shop in the mall
Search some guys out there
Why am I look like a fool?

Now stop your eyes stared
Your friends calling you
And they tell you you're warned
I'm feeling awkward right now
Don't know what shall I do
yeah
Keep making things worst
Keep laughing like a nut
Getting crazy cause I'm freaking out
Why shall the land keep spinning around
Don't know what's happening cause I'm a girl from nowhere

I'm loving a song that never heard
I'm playing a game that invisible
Watching a movie without it title
Doing everything that impossible
That's why it's a lie
Lying for what?
I just want you to be my guest
You gonna be my guest

Remember the picture we took last night
Maybe it isn't outstanding but it's unforgettable
This is all in my mind
Cause you're my very first guest
The one who treated me well
Ohh~are you feeling don't want to know me
Pretend we're strangers cause I'm kinda freak girl
Cause you don't know who I am
And I'm

Chick style like a guy
Living in a weird place
It's exactly hell
So what you mean right now

I'm loving a song that never heard
I'm playing a game that invisible
Watching a movie without it title
Doing everything that impossible
That's why it's a lie
Lying for happy?
I just want you to be my guest
You gonna be my guest

My precious secret
All of them
Yeah
I'm ready to let you
I'll make you know all
There's no hiding behind our relationship
And what you see are all real

I'm loving a song that never heard
I'm playing a game that invisible
Watching a movie without it title
Doing everything that impossible
That's why it's a lie
Lying cause love it
I just want you to be my guest
Ohh~You gonna be my guest

Thanking a guy that never met
He's my idol
No, he ain't a superstar
He just a guy that
Rolling off, Falling down
Until zero
He's a baby
Got a blank mind
He suite to be my guest
He maybe can make me love him

Now he's victim
I'm pity for him
Cause he's looking at me
And he is crying
My guest will be fainted or maybe they're sicken
Don't be here
If you dare to be my guest
Yo!
You can be
You really are my guest
What shall I speak out

Thanks,

qarz^^

Book sales in my school...

Long time no post lo,
Very boring, LOL
Next week I went KL for Christmas because my parents got dinner there(somebody's wedding)
Actually, my parents' wedding anniversary also held in Christmas, so we decided to celebrate it in 26th December lo
We came back last Saturday, I usually won't online in Sunday...
Well, after that my school got sell books, I'm one of the members in cooperate...
Books sales held for three days.
Yesterday, I want to online de but the line very lousy, cannot connect at all...
Luckily, today I can online le, if not I wanna die liao!!!
But still, the line very slow o~
Well, it's okay cause I can post...
Today, very happy o, I saw Dana and many of my friends. Dana is my best friend and i really happy that I saw her! I serve her leh today...
Happy~
Well, I thought I can be a salesgirl if  I don't have job in my future, you know, selling things is my special, maybe i should use word freak, a freak hobby...
Love the way when peoples need my serve/helps...
I feel weird or boring when no one need me or when I'm free, i like to be busy in a weird way.
To all of my Yok Bin's friends, remember to buy books tomorrow, it's the last day!
and don't forget to think 1st then buy!

p/s: It's important!!! If you skip my whole post dun forget to read the last sentence, it'll be the most important thing!!!

Movies and it's meaning

Long time no post~
Nothing's special but I just wanna mention that I watched Avatar yesterday night!
It's really interesting and meaningful.
T.T
Well, I just need to say that we really need to save our earth!
Not only Avatar, 2012 and some other past movie that ask us to recycle, to protect our earth, it's just too many...
As far as you knew, many readings told us that world will be end in one day, maybe that day will be held at 21st till 23rd December 2012, it's after 3 years, but this year, 2009, is going to end in 8 and1/2 day. But we don't know what will happens next, in next second, next minute, next hour and...I realize if this all things really happens as we expected, that's mean my life will end when I'm only 16, My life will end when I'm still a teenager, that many hopes and many dreams, haven't success, come true yet. But I'm already lucky if I just die at 16 cause if there's new born baby, how about them? They're still weak and maybe still haven't got time to know their name, they even don't know how to talk, how pity are them?
I'd been tried to help our belove planet, earth, but those who really help, it's just too a little, our love and care to our home are just a drop of water. We knew, not only us, it's all of the living things, humans, animals, plants or maybe more than that, knew, only if we work together can get the best result.
I'd swear before, if I'm rich and I'm intelligent, I want to create a thing that can save our planet, it's concept is really easy, I imagine it with the point of recycle.
So what if I swore? That's  not everything, in fact, I still don't know when my life will end, I thought I don't have enough time to this, just a willing in my heart, but I haven't start to progress it yet, my plan.
I heard a very meaningful words from American Top Model, Tyra Banks, she said this:

When we are young, we are green,

When we are poor, we wish to be green,

When we are rich, we go green.

My last post did mention go green, I remember it's 'Poor Rich Man= =$$' , this song was inspired by the words that Tyra Banks said. It's mean that, 'Yeah, you're a rich but you lost everything, comes from nature, so you're poor to me.'

p/s: Avatar is a nice movie, buy ticket earlier cause it's really popular. Other than this, watch movies are not just watch, try to get what it's means.

Thanks,

qarz^^